Less Than 3.

so damn disappointed at myself. like i've let myself down. as much as i hate to hear that, but "you fell below my expectations" hit hard and i teared. the problem was that it was supposed to be an easy paper. reasons i did badly, er, didn't study, that paper was the last paper and complacency. ITS SUPPOSED TO BE AN EASY PAPER.

i feel so stupid. but getting over it and am fuckin motivated to work hard. i must. i must...

i just don't understand really. what's the reason?



and i found this absolute.fcking.ly soothing song.



omg me love it sooooooooooooo much.

what an experience?
apart from drunkards and massive crowd, nothing's new
danced for 3 mins at the fountain at clarke quay with farah and ekhsan lol
some free party going on by some dj
but by the time we came, he was playin his last song, bad romance
then some other dj took over
erm then it got pretty hot so we went out from there
so many ppl wasted on the floor and blocked the human traffic
so we walked and walked to somewhere near em by the river and bought drinks
and sat down and stoned for ten minutes
then started to talk and talk
and bout 3 am, started to leave
i got stuck for fucking 2 hours.
all alone.
the bus was fucked, every bus was full.
my ipod batt was low
had no balance in my prepaid
only had 10 bucks in wallet
so i walked and walked and walked
trying to find atm
til i finally realised there's ATM out in the open at bras basah
so i walked from clarke quay to bugis to withdray money and top up card
and i called taxi
waited for fifteen minutes to get thru
it was 5.20am
i got the taxi, and head back home

everything was alright, but i started panicking because i was alone
and so many ppl drunk
lying on the floor, puking everywhere,
wanted to call anyone, but i guess fau's alrdy asleep at 4++, and everyone else
and everyoen was pretty tired so dont wanna bother them
so what did i do?
i talked to myself on the phone
i dont want to look as if im not doing anything
cos all the more if ure walking alone not doing anything, ure prone to being disturbed
and even when i was acting talking to myself on the phone, i was still disturbed by the drunkards
urgh what an experience

hate the night riders
if u know the bus has so many commuters/passengers, why dont u increase the number of buses? the frequency of the bus is fucked up man. and for taxis, its alright cos its like that every year
when i was walking alone, i keep telling myself to be brave and dont panic
but i survived and here i am

ok so that was how i spent my new year
just say so cos theres no need to hide
what's a question when there's no answer?
happens again and again
is there a next?
happy new year folks

WORK IS OVERRRRR! I AM SO HAPPPPPPYYYYY!!! BACK TO SCHOOL!!! AM SO HAPPY! AM BEING TRUTHFUL AND SINCERE ABOUT GOING BACK TO SCH AND FEELING HAPPY!

WE MUST STUDY HARD!

i just need to sleep. that's all.
just sleep.